June 30, 2018

Balanced & Tranquil

Posted in Devotional, Prayer of blessing, true story tagged , , , at 6:50 am by Broken & Brave

Homeostasis is defined as “A state of equilibrium, as in an organism or cell, maintained by self-regulating processes.” When our life is balanced and even keeled we exude a sort of peace and continuity of soul others would like to own also.

Just as our body maintains homeostasis with proper health, we can influence internal status with our nutrition choices. When something like our electrolytes and mineral balance gets out of sorts, we can supplement it to get it back right where it belongs.

We can do the same thing for our heart, mind and soul. Feed yourself good things, positive uplifting words. Drink the Wisdom of God from His written Word. Exhort your mind by spending time in prayer and quiet meditation on the Creator who is everywhere. You get the idea. He will help you find spiritual, mindful and emotional rest and balance. He is the only true supplement you need and a crate full of hope and tranquility is what He brings.

You’ve got a lot to look forward to so,
Look up! ~Nicole

“God has ascended amid shouts of Joy, the Lord amid the sounding of trumpets.” Psalm 47:5

June 28, 2018

A “Get Through” Kind of Love

Posted in Inspirational tagged , , , , , at 7:04 am by Broken & Brave

This is a re-post of something I wrote a long time ago…but how true it still remains. When love has its way, we are forever changed, for the better.

You are loved💜

“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” 1 John 4:18

People shape their perceptions by their experiences with a mix of their temperament/personality type added in. Sometimes a difficult experience can leave an unguarded area wide open to fear. Simple example, you’re in a severe car accident and once you are back on the road you are extremely aware of the possibility of another accident. Your home is robbed and you heighten security out of fear of repeat offense. You go through a divorce and fear to remarry because you don’t want to be hurt again. You were rejected in childhood and now live with insecure thoughts that everyone is rejecting you.

God is more concerned about your outcome than your come from!

Ask Him to cleanse your filter so you can move toward your future free from your fears, pains and experiences of the past. Just because something bad happened to you in the past, doesn’t mean that same thing is going to happen to you now.

I am learning that the more people have travelled through, the more love they need in order to get through. There is nothing to fear, God has no shortage of Love. ~Nicole

June 26, 2018

By Design

Posted in Uncategorized at 5:35 am by Broken & Brave


You and I are cut from a different cloth…

I love textiles. I am particular about tapestry and textures. I touch everything. I love all forms of design. When I buy a new journal I don’t just observe the outward appearance. I open it up and touch it. I feel the texture of the paper as I glide a stroke of my hand across the page. All of it- a part of the experience of writing for me. My favorite garments aren’t always my most beautiful in my wardrobe, but those who’s feel is comfortable when the fabric dangles close to my skin.

You and I are cut from a different cloth.

It was the summer of ’93, I believe. Dates and times begin to blur over time and I recall seasons of life more than anything.

My heart is a keeper of seasons…

This particular season was one of excitement. I had completed college, took a year off to save, plan, apply to graduate programs and endure the process of interview required for my field of choice. I wanted to be a counselor.

I love all forms of counseling. Not the clinical aspect…the heart connection and love of another soul through compassionate and active listening. My entire life I’ve been a counselor. Not by choice, I guess not just chance either. It’s how I am gifted. I was always the friend who would listen and not speak–my ears open and my mind engaged. I’ve been told it’s easy to talk to me because I do not make people feel judged at all and I don’t offer a lot of opinion on what to do. I began to see a pattern of people coming to me when they were hurting, scared or lonely. I know it’s not me, but God within me they are coming to see. His Spirit the Source of Care and Comfort and Rest. It’s not uncommon for people to share with me “their story” in the aisles of the market or at a gas station. I don’t say anything, they just for some reason feel compelled to open up. Sometimes they even apologize and say they don’t even know why they shared with me. I just smile. I know why…God is so good and kind, isn’t He?

You can imagine, with all this being said, how excited I was to dive into the last leg of a long education journey. What I thought was the key–I learned very quickly something deep inside me I think I knew all along, but didn’t understand or want to understand…

I was cut from a different cloth.

I didn’t even make it through one semester completed. The Lord really began to work on me to get me to leave my program and move home. I just didn’t understand. I had worked so hard, planned, invested. How could this not be His plan?

I was living in a small town of northern LA and studying and working on the college campus at Northridge. It was in this season I began to feel, sense, experience the Lord in my heart, mind and soul like never before. I was losing peace.

Keep in mind I wasn’t going to church, but I was reading the Word and I had always been one to pray. Lying in bed at night talking to God was a very comfortable place for me always. He seemed to be the only one I could really talk to who I ever felt was really listening to me for the sake of hearing my heart.

Losing my peace was subtle at first, but then grew stronger. I’d think about going home and the feeling would grow. Then I’d let my brain take over and I’d recap the price I’d paid to get where I was and how foolish it would be to pack it in and go home now. I’d think about the friends I had, the fun I was having and the independence. Oh how I loved the freedom of independence. But something inside kept inclining me home…like a steele cable attaching my heart to the place I had grown.

The Enemy worked overtime to entice me to stay. I began having suitors crawl out of the woodwork. I was never one to date more than one person at a time, but I found myself surrounded by three different young, handsome, successful and very wealthy men pining for my time and attention. It was a bit overwhelming. But even an easy to please simple girl as myself could get truly sucked in to so much attention. I’d get invited to a great concert with hard to get tickets at the Hollywood Bowl, or offered to be flown to Arizona to visit their home…you get the idea. But one young fellow, though established and secure had the simplest gestures for my favor and it was his pure intentions toward me that made me think I had everything I could need, “how can I possibly leave?”
But that is exactly what I did.

I was cut from a different cloth and despite everything my heart grew ever lonely.

After a time to agonize I finally decided and moved back home. I dreaded the work needed to be done to explain what I had done and why I was doing it. In the natural mind of common sense and wisdom none of it made sense, especially to the unbeliever. Even to me…the Believer! But I obeyed His still small voice.

I decided to leave and when I left I left behind everything…even the young man who made my heart glad. Man, was I ever sad.
I had a lot of explaining to do to my roommate who was my best friend from undergrad and in the same program with me. She was not a Christian and couldn’t even remotely wrap her head around my seemingly sudden decision. I shared my faith and knew she didn’t understand but hoped God would one day use the seeds and plant a tree in her heart. My landlord was angry and kept my deposit and my professors were baffled.

Somehow in all of this my roommate decided to move home, too. God is so good! I have no idea how He did that one, but He did and it was so good because let me tell you what happened next…

Within a month or so of our moving home a great earthquake that ranged somewhere between and six or an eight rocked that place and my little street in my north LA town came crashing down. My apartment complex, my neighborhood was the epicenter for the fault line of that quake.

To this day my roommates family believe I saved her life.

I know to the depths of my core that God spared me greatly. The experience so impactful I was able to lead my roommate to Christ, forever changing the direction of her life. She went on to finish her degree at a different university and became a PhD of Psychology, married, raised her family all to love Jesus.

I never finished my Master’s degree. God closed that door to me. But He showed me how my gifts go with me everywhere and I am His Counselor of Exhortation. I get to use my passion for health and fitness coupled with listening and encouraging and loving people with a smile, my time and my ears… every day.

Some of the things I had to sacrifice back then took a very long time for my heart to heal from the loss. But thank God for the Cross. He held my hand through it all.

What is happening in your life that is calling for a certain depth and strength of character? We all have character, we may even have quality character. But what I’ve found in life is that it is strength of character that will carry us far. I can say that in the season of life I just described I had integrity of character, but I was deficient in strength of character. God came and used what little strength I had and added it to His and that’s all it took to make a profound difference.

God will take every ounce of your lack and He will strap it to His back, actually, He already did. He will carry you now. He will hold your hand just as He did mine and walk you through every major, difficult, or hard to understand decision facing you. I hope this helps you. God woke me early just to ensure I had quiet time and space to record a portion of my story for you.

Hold tight, Beloved, God will see you through. Sometimes, many times, our steps of faith are required first before we can see what He has prepared ahead.

Just as in the Bible story of Moses. His mother sent her baby away in the river, I bet she had no peace that day…

Just as he grew to part the Red Sea. He had no idea the power of that testimony.

Great miracles. Great testimonies. Great escapades come by great faith. You’ve been Anointed to do the Impossible.

You have been cut from a different cloth.


“And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.”

Isaiah 30:21

June 25, 2018

Harnessed Potential

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , at 7:44 am by Broken & Brave

There is Power in harnessed potential.

A race horse has real power. But when on the track his eyes have a half mask to secure his focus on his path. He can see what’s ahead of him and what’s just next to him, but most of his peripheral is blocked. He doesn’t look behind himself…that’s the jockeys job. He looks straight ahead, eyes locked.

You are not a race horse, but you may in fact be a thoroughbred by human standards. You’ve been gifted. You are earmarked for something greater. You have vision, ideas, purpose and best yet a reason for your purpose. Are you decided? It’s the decided of heart that start on the mark (because some only dream and never start at all), but then they do what it takes every single day. Success is blessed by heaven, God is the Giver of the all, but success comes in greater measure to those who did the work and earned it. Success comes to those who are willing to do what others are not willing to do. Winners have a winning attitude and a confidence resolved in Heaven. If you don’t have it now, God can bring it to you. In all manners of Goodness, God will afford you the help.


What about you? Do you possess the willingness and discipline to win? Winning isn’t defined as first place first prize. Winning is knowing who you are and understanding why your alive! Come Alive! You’ve got a reason to be here. You’ve got a place to go and God’s got Angels protecting you along the road. Victory is the only option and you are Heaven’s Candidate.

Rise and Shine, Beloved! One more day of the grind because you know in your heart what’s on the other side!

Find your Tenacity and Grit and get after it!


“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”

Romans 15:13

June 24, 2018

Crowned & Able

Posted in Prayer of blessing tagged at 7:07 am by Broken & Brave


“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for [b]God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

The world measures and weighs worth, status, influence and appeal by many measures, but none of them measure up to the evaluation protocol of Heaven.

David was least of all of his family. He had older brothers who were capable, able and strong. He was young. He was inexperienced. He was maybe even a bit naive. But God didn’t look at any of those things. God had a heart that is always hinged on both our heart and His bigger outlook on the future. He cares more about the desires and intent of the heart than anything. He is well able to work with our personal deficiencies, shortcomings and faults. Plus, the more we understand it is He at work within us, the less likely we are to become proud and boastful that our measure of success are of our own fruitful efforts.

God is deeply under the persuasion of love to earnestly and perpetually pursue you. He is, in fact, in pursuit of our hearts daily, hourly and even moment by moment.

Do you ever feel less than? Are you the least of your “clan”? Are you undecided about how the prospects of your future look?

Rest decided in the arms of heaven today. God has angles and access and a point of view that has more clarity than anything you have ever walked through, endured or tried to escape. He has a signet ring for your finger, a royal robe to drape upon your back and His Mantle doesn’t cluster wrath, but will give you a bath in all things good, refreshing and pure. He means to show you just how good He can be and that He didn’t hang from a Tree just for anything…He hung there specifically for YOU.

So stand tall today. Hold your chin high, but only so you can keep your eyes to the sky as you watch your Maker lavish your soul with Splendor. He means to bring you blessings that earthly measures cannot Tender.

Heaven has decided it’s heart on you. Every morning those Mercies are new…just for you. You’ve got an exclusive deal of God’s affection. He is big enough to spread His wealth of love all around.

You are more than enough!

June 23, 2018


Posted in Uncategorized at 7:23 am by Broken & Brave

God always means to extract His best from you. He never means to hurt you or bring you harm.

He will, however, at times allow you to struggle so you can be like a big bold and beautiful butterfly being released from the cocoon into the GORGEOUS creation He always knew He’d locked inside of YOU.

You are beautiful NOW, but just wait until He’s through! Stunning beyond measure. ~Nicole

“But we all, with uncovered face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image, from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.”

2 Cor. 3:18

Be bold and watch history unfold.
Walk into Heavenly Mysteries and Victories explode like paint on the wings of butterfly with delight your soul will soar.


June 21, 2018


Posted in Inspirational tagged , , , , , , at 6:57 am by Broken & Brave

YOU are Beautiful!

… Stunning actually.

You’re life-significant…valuable…and created with purpose! Do not let anyone or anything influence you otherwise. You have been gifted with Hope and you have no idea probably the Hope you have brought to others. We usually know the least of all our own beauty and strength. But God created and gifted, you to the world. The joy comes in opening the present. Right? Everyone can appreciate a beautiful package, but it’s what’s inside and the anticipation that excites the soul.

Bath your heart in thanksgiving and perfume your soul with Hope. It will give off the most pleasing aroma that makes the world want to know!

People all around us are desperate for Hope and desire freedom from depression or sadness of heart. Pay attention and see who God has maybe sent you to encourage!

Never forget. You are lavished in Grace and Heaven has reserved you a space nothing could possibly replace. You are loved. ~Nicole

“I have loved you with an everlasting love.” Jeremiah 31:3


June 20, 2018


Posted in Uncategorized at 6:33 am by Broken & Brave

” Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”

Lamentation 3:22-24

“All I have needed, Thy hand has provided. Great is Thy Faithfulness, Lord unto me.”

Can you not feel His Comfort?

Perhaps I find particular comfort in this because it flashes me back to my childhood and singing this as a hymn in church. I never liked hymns growing up. I wanted something catchier and contemporary. But all week I’ve been pressing in to my Savior looking for Him to quench my dryness. I’ve been pouring into others a lot lately and I am feeling rather parched of soul. I asked my Lord to fill my cup to overflow. I worshipped and praised and tried to really get lost in Him.

I enjoyed it.

I love telling Him how much I need Him, love Him, desire Him. Words are important to me and God allows me to lavish my affirmation upon Him without any reservation. He can handle all I can bring. I can unleash my true hearts love potential.

Despite my words and worship and attempt to rest–I felt restless. I knew I needed a release. Release from life’s anxieties, responsibilities and the demands upon my time and for my attention. I needed to be alone, away from others. I needed to be alone with Him.


But in all His Faithfulness He was there as I pressed in, but somewhat quiet. He didn’t flood my heart, my head or my soul. He was reserved. I know He is smitten for my attention, but He seemed coy and shy. Can God be shy? But my heart anticipated His response to my hearts cry. I knew He would…

Then this little verse.
I read it this morning and my heart absolutely consumed with moisture, that Heavenly Dew I’d been looking for. His Love burst into the room and He anchored His Heart to mine and He pulled me up to His side and reminded me what it feels like to be His Bride.

Are you feeling a little worn down from life? Are the demands and circumstances and responsibilities that surround you a little much? Do you need a refreshment? A retreat? Listen to me…rest your heart. You may not be able to rest your head or get away to paradise for that needed vacation. You may not even be able to get alone, the demands for your time and attention overgrown like a garden needing to be pruned. But He loves you.

God loves you.

Clutch onto Him. He has strong and broad shoulders. He can carry you. He can hold you. He has got Mercy, Faithfulness and Tenderness that abounds. Retreat in Him and find what you need. He will equip you to keep going.

Be blessed today–you are Heaven made. ~Nicole💜

June 19, 2018

Prayer of Praise & Prose

Posted in Devotional, Prayer of blessing tagged , , , , , at 6:54 am by Broken & Brave


This day…

Help me, Lord to rest in your confidence, Truth and will.
Equip me to remain at peace in my heart, mind and soul.
Stir my heart and it’s devotions more deeply toward you.
Everything I am able to do is because of you.
May I abide in Christ and love more. Not to love as I know I can and have been able to love in the past.
Not to love as I wish too-
But to love as you do.
Head to toe, heart and soul, you’ve always got more of the good stuff my heart and soul long for.

You are Good. So Good.
You are Splendid. Splendid indeed.

May I lie at your feet on the threshing floor as Ruth did-
waiting for the Kinsman Redeemer to bring forth an Abundant Harvest of your Good Promise.

My King of kings- I love you more.

“I have loved you with an everlasting love.” Jeremiah 31:3

***Poetic Prose of Prayer and Praise. I script my heart and personal prayers on page as a guide post to gain deeper intimacy in Christ. He is waiting for you to go deeper in Him.

June 16, 2018

I Am is a Guide Post

Posted in Uncategorized at 5:53 am by Broken & Brave

It takes a long time to build muscle and change your shape. With consistent effort, good nutrition and faithfulness you begin to see some fruit of your efforts right away, but for long term wellness you’ve got to stick and stay. Your reward is in the constant and deliberate application of it. You’ve got to be patient.

Not everyone has the same muscle or body type. Some are endomorphic (can build muscle but also hold more fat), ectomorphic (very linear and lean in build with less body fat but also less muscle thickness) and then there is mesomorph (build muscle easily, tend to be naturally muscular, but also can store a little more body fat).

Depending on what you are training for, your goals and your body type, will help determine how your training should be designed. There is no cookie cutter system. Personalized attention to details yields the best results.

The same is true for Soul Strength. You must nurture your own heart, feed it good stuff, always be expanding your mind and growing your soul. Be open to new ideas and opportunities as they unfold. Be mindful that not every good idea is God’s idea for your life just like not every fitness protocol is the same from person to person. Seek soul strength, find wisdom, pursue it diligently like you were a Bride preparing to fit her wedding dress– ironed and pressed.

Be patient with the process.

When sharing your faith you cannot share the exact same way from person to person. There is no cookie cutter technique. We can have a general blue print for sharing our faith and I encourage you to have one. I have a system to teach others how to share their testimony in both a 30 second elevator version and a two minute version without spewing the gospel all over people. But some don’t want to hear the name Jesus at all. But they are hungry and hurting and aching for something more.

I find myself in this situation right now. I’ve had a similar situation before and that person came to know the Lord, but it happened with unconventional evangelism methods. The person I am lead to now is very turned off by their Christianity experience because of a close relative and doesn’t want Jesus–only wants love.

She knows I’m a believer.

But the manner in which I practice active listening and Love and encouragement engaged her. She shared all of the things she has tried to solve a specific problem and all have failed. I asked if she was willing to try anything? She said, ” yes ” (but is fairly closed to Jesus but not faith remember). So I shared with her the knowledge I receive about people from the Spirit called “I Am”. She asked if I Am was Christian and I did say, “yes- but I Am is the highest power”. I explained the story of my friend who was studying to become a reiki healer because she is currently practicing it (reiki is very New Age). I explained how discerning and gifted this friend was, but had an unsolvable issue. He was open to the detailed insight to his life my “I Am Spirit Guide” had shared with me about him so my friend also began to seek the I Am’s voice and it lead Him to Grace. I told her the same I Am can help her with a very scary and very real physical need for healing. I told her how reiki works, but I Am has more Power. She is very open and asked how to reach Him.

Unconventional. Uncommon. Not judgmental. Not preachy. Not opinionated. Acceptance. Love and Truth. We create the environment for the Holy Spirit to become a welcome guest and do what only He can do…save souls and heal lives. Positive and eternal change.

I desire prayer for my young friend and how God is clearly using me to bring the Love and Health she is searching for.

Soul Strength.
Soul Harvest.

New Age people I find are incredibly spiritually sensitive and gifted people. They are very loving in my experience with them. They have awareness and can see in the Spirit, but they are misguided and don’t know the Love who loves Greater….at least they don’t know Him yet.

I think God has equipped me with the ability to understand and speak to the New Age heart. Perhaps if God hadn’t given me the parents He gave me and the childhood He gave me I’d have been New Age, too. I was very spiritually gifted, aware, sensitive my whole life and I was very turned off by “churchy people” who seemed to practice legalism, sin ranking, condemnation. Thank the Lord He put a solid pastor in my young life who wasn’t any of those things.

Pray for me and pray for my young friend. Be aware of the people you meet and greet. They are looking for genuine and real love. Love hard. Love big.

I’ve never heard of anyone having stretch marks on their heart from loving too big, but if it were possible I’d like to test the waters and try to love that big! ~Nicole

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.” Mark 12:30

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