April 5, 2018

Dreamer

Posted in true story tagged , , , , , , , , at 5:52 am by Broken & Brave

“And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.” Romans 8:27

Do you own a shovel?

Shovel out the contents of your heart. Quite the visual, isn’t it?

We can’t actually take a shovel and dig out our heart, and if we wanted to we’d have to ask someone to help us do it, but of course, we would most likely die.

But isn’t that just what God wants? To “dig out” all of us so that all that remains is Him? Don’t we sing it, pray it, “search my heart of God, less of me and more of you”…

I’ve been on His beautiful journey with the Holy Spirit. I’ve been a Christian most of my life, but it wasn’t until I was in my twenties that He awakened my soul to something more. The Eyes of His Spirit. And these eyes are like Night Vision Goggles.

The Word says His eyes roam to and fro over all of the earth keeping watch over both the wicked and the righteous. (Proverbs 15:3;
2 Chronicles 6:9)

But God has gifts to share and some of His gifts are the Eyes and Ears of His Spirit. In the Old Testament they were called Prophets or Seers. In the New Testament Acts Chapter 2 tongues of fire came and licked the people and they became filled to overflow with the Holy Spirit.

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“‘In the last days, God says,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your young men will see visions,
your old men will dream dreams.”

Acts 2:17

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I dream.

I have been one who dreams all of my life. I don’t just dream a little. I am a prolific dreamer, every night multiple dreams a night. But some dreams are more pressing and urgent than others. I am also a Dreamer, but they are not the same thing. One is an active recipient of instruction, wisdom, information/knowledge, discernment of principalities and guidance for intercession via the tool of dreams. The later is someone who is Visionary and can see with the minds eye what they want to see or God has shown them regarding the future. Many people, Christian or not, operate in the later of these types of Dreamers as they are leaders who “cast vision” for others to follow their lead and then they make the plan a reality. A visionary can see an old decaying house, but with the eyes of their imagination, they see its beauty and potential and what could be with the right amount of love. And many also create, cast vision or do something successful based on something “they saw in a dream”. I think this happens a lot with creative people.

But then there is the Intercessor. The Prophet. The Seer.

I have had eyes that see and ears that hear my whole life. But I didn’t necessarily know what it was. As a young person the realms of darkness began to torment me, persons without bodies, two dimensional dark forces who sway the Night would harass me. I had no one to talk to about it. I told my parents, but they didn’t understand it, because they didn’t ever experience anything like this personally.

These tormenting moments came in waves. But during my mid twenties, when God awoken me to something deeper-was the absolute point when these forces came against me in enormous measure. I had done nothing to encourage it. I have never dabbled in witchcraft…AT ALL! I’m too sensitive spiritually and had zero attraction to anything like that. But it was in this season that I also began to receive forces of Light and Life in the same way I was experiencing the darkness. And the Power of God Infused me and I began to realize for the first time in my life I had a spiritual, Biblical gifting called Discernment of Spirits. For someone with this gift, depending upon how strong the gift is in them (we can have gifts in degrees much like someone can be good at basketball and someone can be number one draft pick NBA good at basketball). So, depending on these variables, someone with this gift, or me anyway, experience and see the unseen world just as much as they see the natural world. Both are operating all around each of us everyday. The thing is–that all sounds kind of weird, right? Well, experiencing it can also be kind of weird. I have realized more and more there are people with these experiences sitting right next to us at work, or school or even our churches–but they don’t understand what they are experiencing and are afraid to talk to anyone about it, because quite frankly, it’s hard to describe and most just don’t get it. I can’t remember what year, google it, but Neil Anderson (who writes a lot about these topics) took a poll at Biola University and over 70% of the students expressed that they had experienced tormenting spirits or tormenting dreams.

God has been drawing such persons to me in ever growing measure recently. I was speaking with a Mom who reached out to me last week about her daughter who is experiencing some torment the same way I did as a 17 year old girl. What a joy to be able to Biblically guide her on how to handle and dismiss it with our God given Authority, but also clues as to maybe why she was encountering it or being targeted. Oh how I wish I’d had someone when I was 17 to explain all this to me! I was also able to share from my own personal experience.

Is this you? God has got people who can help you. All you really need to do is PRAY. He will send them to you. Be alert and pay attention, but even if you aren’t, God has a way of blessing us despite us! When I was in my mid-twenties, that point in life where I really began to break away from the chains of fear these spirits were trying to put on me and I began to learn the incredible Sword of Spirit I had been given, he was putting older women all around me who were seasoned veterans of the faith, prayer warriors, Intercessors, Seers, Prophetic who knew who they were in Christ and knew how to slay!! It was like for the first time in my life a thirst was being quenched in the best way. I was receiving wisdom, knowledge and understanding.

I used to always ask God, “Why would you gift people to see what we don’t really want to see? These beings are invisible for a reason!” It was all kind of creepy to me. But as I continued to grow, had women who helped me to understand that I had revelatory dreams and how to interpret them and then the discipleship of my own time with the Word and the Holy Spirit I became ever familiar with how the Voice of God spoke to me personally through dreams. I began to realize the weight of responsibility that came with these gifts. I realized how beautiful these gifts were because they can be used to protect people. Especially, for me, how I can use them to protect my own children.

This is all quite Biblical. Joseph’s gift of dreams and their interpretation made way for him. Jacob dreamed and saw in Spirit. The Apostle Paul said he travelled, but didn’t know if it was in Body or out of body. And Jesus himself told his disciples they would do everything he did.

I believe there are Seers everywhere. People gifted with Eyes of the Spirit, and the more refined and groomed the gift, the more emptied out we become, like our heart has been dug out with a shovel, the more room for the Giver to freely operate the gifts within us. We become more dependent on what God shows in the Spirit than anything else. And this is the substance of faith and it’s also the foundation for Creative Miracles. But that needs to be a different blog.

So, the other night I had one of these dreams, so vivid and real it was like I was actually in it. When I woke I was so disturbed by what I saw, but I received no revelation of the meaning. Sometimes my dreams are literal, as in this event is happening or is going to happen or has already happened. Sometimes my dreams are more figurative and symbolic. Sometimes they are a combination of both. So I usually spend much time in prayer and worship to receive direction on how to pray or proceed with what God has given me.

In the dream I saw a house, I saw the neighborhood, I saw a fire. I saw one house on fire and I could see the depth and intensity of the heat. I could see the flames licking at the community it was in. I saw specific people in the house. But I saw more…

When I woke I could not return to sleep for the dream was intense and so clear. I prayed. I asked God, is this symbolic for a move, a wave of the Holy Spirit? Or is my dream an actual fire? He never told me…until later the next day.

Someone at my church shared and what they described was like she was telling everyone my dream. I felt so grateful in that moment, not only for their safety, because it had indeed been a real fire, not symbolic, but for my own personal request to God for revelation of the dream being answered. It’s hard to know what to say in those moments.

I said something, because I saw more, but felt the need to hold back. But God is so unique-I realized later why he had shown me what he showed me. I had someone approach me in the parking lot and began to ask me about seeing things in dreams. They began to share their experiences and wanted insight. I was happy to explain and then pray with them. I know exactly how she felt. It’s so freeing when you find out “why?” !

As I got in my car my little one said, “THAT was a long talk.” I said, “Yes, it was”. It was like 10 minutes, lol. But in my heart I loved on my Jesus. He’s been mentoring me a lot lately about how His Love is willing to leave the 99 for the One. I told him I’d gladly love the one…hands down, every time. I know how that feels…to be the one.

God has got Intercessors. People He assigns like Watchmen on the Wall of Compassion. They receive from the Spirit and they wield weapons of warfare against dark forces and principalities that stalk the Night looking for people to rape, pillage and destroy. But God! Is Mighty and Valiant to save and He alone does the saving and revealing, but rest assured, His stealthy warriors are out there looking out for you. And if you have connected to anything I’ve said like God has taken a highlighter pen to your heart and my words have cut through, then this post is for you. God has put gifts in you and let this post be the catalyst to your seeking Him deeper and receiving the answers to your prayers and your experiences. He has more than enough wisdom, knowledge and understanding for you. His Mercy always shines through. He’s got you.

~Nicole

Here are a JUST A FEW resources for review on the topic of Demons, Dreams, Spiritual Warfare, and various other “Power Gifts”:

•Neil T. Anderson (author)
•Derek Prince/DPMMinistries

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March 19, 2018

Hardship

Posted in Inspirational, true story tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 6:43 am by Broken & Brave

Have you ever tried to wash your hands with only soap and no water? You can’t do it. It becomes a sticky mess.

I went and got a manicure yesterday afternoon and after the salon employee trimmed and filed my nails she told me to go wash my hands, “water only”.
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See, it’s possible to wash your hands with water only. The rinsing away of debris and even some dirt can happen with water alone-especially if the water is warm and we spend some time under it. But soap alone…not even close to the same.

This is how it is when we wash ourselves in the Word of God. It reaches in and strips us of impurities and washes away every ounce of pain, shame, regret, loneliness, abandonment, unforgiveness and resentment, sickness and disease. The Word loosens what is holding onto our heart, mind, body and soul–but its the Holy Spirit’s job to act like Healing and Cleansing Waters and wash it away completely, residue free purity.

Hardship has a way of knocking off our rough edges. Hardship has a unique way-when guided by the Lord-to purify, build, strengthen and infuse our hearts with deeper hope, deeper faith, deeper wisdom, deeper sense of purpose and resolve. The Holy Spirit activates what the Word of God has planted. Hardship also gives us experiential knowledge we can get no other way. It gives us Authority over Principalities. It gives us Spiritual Territory. Experience yields insight like nothing else.

My entire life I have been a student of human behavior. I am a watcher, a noticed, a silent observer. All my life I’ve been taking pictures with my mind, taking notes. I’ve gleaned from those I’d like to learn from. My Mom always called it my “Book of Life”. She’d say, when something good was going to come out of her mouth, “put this one in your Book of Life.” But some things were added to the book all on my own. I learned a lot, from a very, very young age what I didn’t want to do, by observation as well. But hardship…hardship yields an experience like none other.

I’ve been through more hardship in the past two decades than I could possible recount here with my little pen. I haven’t got the time or energy. I heard someone say yesterday they had a trial a decade ago and they are in a trial again now. I couldn’t help but wonder what it was like to have a break between trials? For mine have been deep and vast and have all overlapped with no break or relief in between. I have at times struggled to understand why God had allowed so many bad things to happen to me?
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But here’s what I know.
He has spread an enormous Canopy of Grace over my head and face and my life is guarded faithfully. I see Him bless my kids hands over fist and their spiritual maturity is vast beyond their young years. I feel the kiss of God on my face and I spend enormous amounts of time just lingering in his embrace. And for me, it has spoiled and ruined me for any other form of love-it is all lesser than His. I hear the Holy Spirit speak and his voice gets stronger and louder and more clear as each day passes. He guides me, protects me, warns me, gives me words of knowledge and thwarts the enemy as he has indeed watched my back.

I have always felt the favor of Heaven, even when I didn’t know what it was. But it was my hardship that drew me in and I learned to wear his love like a glove and I allowed his spirit to wash over my life and I have taken his experiential knowledge-wrapped in a cloak of hardship-and applied it like healing ointment to a very wounded and weary Bride.

Every time something of enormous difficulty and pain would hit me I’d ask God why, and every time I’d hear with crystal clarity, “Because I want to use your voice.” And I have been told for many years now that my voice has an Anointing for comfort on it. His Peace is attached to the words and prayers he gives me. He honors the prayers I pray for others and they receive healing-like a “Midas Touch” from heaven.

God may not bring hardship, but he certainly allows it and he is such an Economizer he will use it. He is a potter and we are his clay.

God wants His Church to rise. It is time for her to wake up.
Arise, Sleeping Giant, arise.
Your Groom awaits.
Allow Him to wrap you in love, tenderness, mercy and grace and heal you with His Word, Cleanse you with the Holy Spirit, and anchor you with His Atoning Blood.

Your hardships have not been in vain…for by it, you can spread a wider and deeper net of hope and catch those who are sinking in oceans of adversity deep.

You are a fisher of men.

Hardship is a gift, when we allow God to use it. We can only get through it with Him.

~Nicole

December 13, 2017

Awakened

Posted in Devotional, Inspirational tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 7:12 am by Broken & Brave

All of life is a message.
What is yours saying?
All of life is a song.
What is yours singing?
All of life if full of opportunity.
Are you taking any chances?

The Kingdom of God does not come by observation…

One of the greatest achievements for the Christian life is to live a Spirit lead life. Being lead by the Spirit is not easy. You will experience difficulty and immense spiritual warfare when you choose and decide to abide in your stride and walk faithfully at the Lord’s side as He guides you to Rivers of Refreshment. You will encounter great difficulties for the Spirit lead Believer is the Enemy of Heavens greatest threat outside of the Almighty himself.
But if you can overcome…and you can.
If you can dig deep and press through the ravenous terrain.
If you can trench through the muck and the mire and get to the other side…
Not only will you possess a life that completely inspires, but you will personally receive God’s great reward for Faithfulness and obedience.

The Spirit lead life will challenge you. You will permanently move and live outside of your comfort zone. It is a narrow road. Unfortunately, few choose it so it can also be a lonely road. But you never go alone. The Almighty HE is the most stable, able supplemental strength you could ever ask for. He goes, too, right beside you. So go ahead…

Live Brave!

Everything worth having in life requires work. Requires effort. Your life may be “good” on a scale of “Good, Better, Best”. Take actions steps today toward living your BEST life! Finish Strong!

Does anything you’ve read that I’ve said speak to you? Are you facing battles you don’t understand or mountains too ominous to defeat on your own?

You are not alone.
You do not go it alone.
God cups your heart in His hands and He makes no demands.
He just want to comfort you today.

“The LORD said to me, “You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled.”
Jeremiah 1:12

Shalom. May the Peace of God stir the Heavens and pour out a delightful portion of Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, Kindness, Thanksgiving, Tenderness and Resilient Strength that supplies for your every need. He is like the almond tree in Jeremiah 1:12. The Hebrew word, shoked, also called the “Awake Tree” hastens. The Lord is awake and watching over you. He is not dormant in your situation. He has Hidden Treasures awaiting you and He will bring forth the accelerated blessing.

Open your eyes…
Be awakened, too.💛

~Nicole

“But The Lord stood with me and strengthened me, so that the message might be preached fully through me…”
2 Timothy 2:17

 

November 20, 2017

Explore

Posted in Inspirational, true story tagged , , , , , at 7:39 am by Broken & Brave

The Lord is Beautiful. He is Magnificent. How can one so Majestic, so Powerful- Extreme and Supreme- be so kind and gentle and tender with me? But this is exactly how He’s been.

I’ve been pondering His Goodness as He guides and directs my life. When you Purpose your choices to live by faith, yielding to the lead of the ever Amazing Grace of Heaven, you make decisions based on His lead not your own. I sometimes find myself making choices and choosing paths I wouldn’t have considered on my own for various reasons. Sometimes when I embark on His lead and take those steps of faith I am tentative and wondering, but I have enough experience with this- my faith is secure enough to go anyway and obey. Then I usually find myself saying, “I’m so glad I listened and obeyed.”

God sees what we cannot. He has a rooftop view of all of Eternity. The Universe is His footstool. He can see both the future and the past and knows exactly where you are at-both physically as well as emotionally, intellectually and spiritually. He will meet you there every single time. Without fail.

When He guides you to a destination He will make a promise. He will give you something to hang your hope on. Frequently there is some pain and refinement between point A (where you are now) and Point B (the Promised Land). But I dare say, the fire of affliction and the sting of Adversity are worth it. For the glorious fruit that is birthed in your own personal intimacy with the Father is loveliness like non other. Nothing compares to friendship with God.

I’ve recently competed in two figure competitions. I went into the competition season training and preparing, but my heart wasn’t in it. I was tired and weary in general because of the demands my day to day life had to offer. I knew the extra umph I was going to have to muster up if I were to register and compete in a show. There He was, that sweet whisper in my ear, telling me over and over again that I wasn’t done and in fact I had only just begun. So as I searched for something to commit to nothing was working out. This is when I was lead to explore new paths. A new road became known and I ventured into an organization I knew nothing about. I have two friends who compete in this organization so I contacted one and asked some questions. I dove in headlong and committed to one of their biggest shows.

I enjoyed that experience very much…in fact, I enjoyed more than any other show I had ever done before. There was to be another even bigger show the following week in Las Vegas. I wasn’t registered, but the Spirit had already given me the heads up I would qualify to compete and he wanted me to go. It was a tough commitment because I only had a few days notice to get registered, book a hotel, make arrangement for my children…a lot of last minute work. When it’s God is always runs smooth and this is how it went for sure.

Before I committed I sat in church on a Sunday, the day after the first show. As I sat thinking about if I’d go or seeking God to lean in my heart once more so I could be sure of the steps and the expense it would bring I was also listening to my pastor preach. Suddenly, I heard the Spirit of God move in my heart and said, “It would be a mistake for you not to go.” I got out my journal to write His words down and as I was writing it was as though the voice of my pastor were carried in a wind tunnel right to my head. It was supernatural and powerful and I knew God was giving me ample confirmation to sustain my faith. The pastor was saying-just as I was writing the words down…”it would be a mistake not to go.” –pastor said, “I’d rather try and fail than be successful at doing nothing.” Even though he was half way across a large room, his voice spoke like he were right next to me. That was God.

We all play a key in the Body. I had a fabulous experience on that trip and I agree, I would have missed out horribly on so many things for now and the future if I had held back and not gone to Vegas. But even more, my Pastor was faithful to follow the lead of the Spirit in ministry and God used his voice as a source of supplemental confirmation for me. You never know how God is using your life.

On my trip I met some amazing new friends and reconnected with some old ones. But one little gal in particular I am praying for and getting to know. I know our meeting was a Divine Appointment and I can’t wait to see what God does.

I guess my take-a-way for you today is don’t be afraid to try. Don’t hold back when you feel the Lord nudging you in the back. Release inhibitions and bring your will, your reason, into submission. God sees what you can’t. When we take steps of faith He is as close as our face and gives us ample opportunity to trust His lead. The better you become at doing this, the more He will lead you into situations and opportunities that make no sense in the natural and may seem ominous and scary. But trust me, these are the moments when His Greatness won’t vary. He will explore it and expose that same Greatness He has locked in you–even you will be blown away at all the amazing He does in you and through you. He’s always got you…and that’s a Promise.

Walking by Faith is opportunity for Grace.

~Nicole

November 16, 2017

Future President🌟

Posted in Prayer of blessing, true story tagged , , , , , , , , at 7:04 am by Broken & Brave

It only takes one person to believe in you to Light your Purpose afire.

When my daughter was little she had a t-shirt that said, “future president”. All my little ones inherited this shirt & as time went on I began telling ppl when they met my babies, that they were a future president. Most ppl would laugh like I was being funny…while I wouldn’t laugh, but would just pause and smile. I was declaring purpose over them.

President of what? A corporation? A club? The country? ….Yes.
I was declaring leadership over them.

Others may not have recognized it but God did. I didn’t let another’s lack of vision prevent mine. By the time I had number four, Joel, I had ppl telling me he looked like a president (he was a baby!) true story. All it takes is one who sees all you can be & speak it faithfully.

You are a diamond for for polish. Shine, let is shine…Brilliantly. ~Nicole

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