April 5, 2018

Dreamer

Posted in true story tagged , , , , , , , , at 5:52 am by Broken & Brave

“And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.” Romans 8:27

Do you own a shovel?

Shovel out the contents of your heart. Quite the visual, isn’t it?

We can’t actually take a shovel and dig out our heart, and if we wanted to we’d have to ask someone to help us do it, but of course, we would most likely die.

But isn’t that just what God wants? To “dig out” all of us so that all that remains is Him? Don’t we sing it, pray it, “search my heart of God, less of me and more of you”…

I’ve been on His beautiful journey with the Holy Spirit. I’ve been a Christian most of my life, but it wasn’t until I was in my twenties that He awakened my soul to something more. The Eyes of His Spirit. And these eyes are like Night Vision Goggles.

The Word says His eyes roam to and fro over all of the earth keeping watch over both the wicked and the righteous. (Proverbs 15:3;
2 Chronicles 6:9)

But God has gifts to share and some of His gifts are the Eyes and Ears of His Spirit. In the Old Testament they were called Prophets or Seers. In the New Testament Acts Chapter 2 tongues of fire came and licked the people and they became filled to overflow with the Holy Spirit.

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“‘In the last days, God says,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your young men will see visions,
your old men will dream dreams.”

Acts 2:17

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I dream.

I have been one who dreams all of my life. I don’t just dream a little. I am a prolific dreamer, every night multiple dreams a night. But some dreams are more pressing and urgent than others. I am also a Dreamer, but they are not the same thing. One is an active recipient of instruction, wisdom, information/knowledge, discernment of principalities and guidance for intercession via the tool of dreams. The later is someone who is Visionary and can see with the minds eye what they want to see or God has shown them regarding the future. Many people, Christian or not, operate in the later of these types of Dreamers as they are leaders who “cast vision” for others to follow their lead and then they make the plan a reality. A visionary can see an old decaying house, but with the eyes of their imagination, they see its beauty and potential and what could be with the right amount of love. And many also create, cast vision or do something successful based on something “they saw in a dream”. I think this happens a lot with creative people.

But then there is the Intercessor. The Prophet. The Seer.

I have had eyes that see and ears that hear my whole life. But I didn’t necessarily know what it was. As a young person the realms of darkness began to torment me, persons without bodies, two dimensional dark forces who sway the Night would harass me. I had no one to talk to about it. I told my parents, but they didn’t understand it, because they didn’t ever experience anything like this personally.

These tormenting moments came in waves. But during my mid twenties, when God awoken me to something deeper-was the absolute point when these forces came against me in enormous measure. I had done nothing to encourage it. I have never dabbled in witchcraft…AT ALL! I’m too sensitive spiritually and had zero attraction to anything like that. But it was in this season that I also began to receive forces of Light and Life in the same way I was experiencing the darkness. And the Power of God Infused me and I began to realize for the first time in my life I had a spiritual, Biblical gifting called Discernment of Spirits. For someone with this gift, depending upon how strong the gift is in them (we can have gifts in degrees much like someone can be good at basketball and someone can be number one draft pick NBA good at basketball). So, depending on these variables, someone with this gift, or me anyway, experience and see the unseen world just as much as they see the natural world. Both are operating all around each of us everyday. The thing is–that all sounds kind of weird, right? Well, experiencing it can also be kind of weird. I have realized more and more there are people with these experiences sitting right next to us at work, or school or even our churches–but they don’t understand what they are experiencing and are afraid to talk to anyone about it, because quite frankly, it’s hard to describe and most just don’t get it. I can’t remember what year, google it, but Neil Anderson (who writes a lot about these topics) took a poll at Biola University and over 70% of the students expressed that they had experienced tormenting spirits or tormenting dreams.

God has been drawing such persons to me in ever growing measure recently. I was speaking with a Mom who reached out to me last week about her daughter who is experiencing some torment the same way I did as a 17 year old girl. What a joy to be able to Biblically guide her on how to handle and dismiss it with our God given Authority, but also clues as to maybe why she was encountering it or being targeted. Oh how I wish I’d had someone when I was 17 to explain all this to me! I was also able to share from my own personal experience.

Is this you? God has got people who can help you. All you really need to do is PRAY. He will send them to you. Be alert and pay attention, but even if you aren’t, God has a way of blessing us despite us! When I was in my mid-twenties, that point in life where I really began to break away from the chains of fear these spirits were trying to put on me and I began to learn the incredible Sword of Spirit I had been given, he was putting older women all around me who were seasoned veterans of the faith, prayer warriors, Intercessors, Seers, Prophetic who knew who they were in Christ and knew how to slay!! It was like for the first time in my life a thirst was being quenched in the best way. I was receiving wisdom, knowledge and understanding.

I used to always ask God, “Why would you gift people to see what we don’t really want to see? These beings are invisible for a reason!” It was all kind of creepy to me. But as I continued to grow, had women who helped me to understand that I had revelatory dreams and how to interpret them and then the discipleship of my own time with the Word and the Holy Spirit I became ever familiar with how the Voice of God spoke to me personally through dreams. I began to realize the weight of responsibility that came with these gifts. I realized how beautiful these gifts were because they can be used to protect people. Especially, for me, how I can use them to protect my own children.

This is all quite Biblical. Joseph’s gift of dreams and their interpretation made way for him. Jacob dreamed and saw in Spirit. The Apostle Paul said he travelled, but didn’t know if it was in Body or out of body. And Jesus himself told his disciples they would do everything he did.

I believe there are Seers everywhere. People gifted with Eyes of the Spirit, and the more refined and groomed the gift, the more emptied out we become, like our heart has been dug out with a shovel, the more room for the Giver to freely operate the gifts within us. We become more dependent on what God shows in the Spirit than anything else. And this is the substance of faith and it’s also the foundation for Creative Miracles. But that needs to be a different blog.

So, the other night I had one of these dreams, so vivid and real it was like I was actually in it. When I woke I was so disturbed by what I saw, but I received no revelation of the meaning. Sometimes my dreams are literal, as in this event is happening or is going to happen or has already happened. Sometimes my dreams are more figurative and symbolic. Sometimes they are a combination of both. So I usually spend much time in prayer and worship to receive direction on how to pray or proceed with what God has given me.

In the dream I saw a house, I saw the neighborhood, I saw a fire. I saw one house on fire and I could see the depth and intensity of the heat. I could see the flames licking at the community it was in. I saw specific people in the house. But I saw more…

When I woke I could not return to sleep for the dream was intense and so clear. I prayed. I asked God, is this symbolic for a move, a wave of the Holy Spirit? Or is my dream an actual fire? He never told me…until later the next day.

Someone at my church shared and what they described was like she was telling everyone my dream. I felt so grateful in that moment, not only for their safety, because it had indeed been a real fire, not symbolic, but for my own personal request to God for revelation of the dream being answered. It’s hard to know what to say in those moments.

I said something, because I saw more, but felt the need to hold back. But God is so unique-I realized later why he had shown me what he showed me. I had someone approach me in the parking lot and began to ask me about seeing things in dreams. They began to share their experiences and wanted insight. I was happy to explain and then pray with them. I know exactly how she felt. It’s so freeing when you find out “why?” !

As I got in my car my little one said, “THAT was a long talk.” I said, “Yes, it was”. It was like 10 minutes, lol. But in my heart I loved on my Jesus. He’s been mentoring me a lot lately about how His Love is willing to leave the 99 for the One. I told him I’d gladly love the one…hands down, every time. I know how that feels…to be the one.

God has got Intercessors. People He assigns like Watchmen on the Wall of Compassion. They receive from the Spirit and they wield weapons of warfare against dark forces and principalities that stalk the Night looking for people to rape, pillage and destroy. But God! Is Mighty and Valiant to save and He alone does the saving and revealing, but rest assured, His stealthy warriors are out there looking out for you. And if you have connected to anything I’ve said like God has taken a highlighter pen to your heart and my words have cut through, then this post is for you. God has put gifts in you and let this post be the catalyst to your seeking Him deeper and receiving the answers to your prayers and your experiences. He has more than enough wisdom, knowledge and understanding for you. His Mercy always shines through. He’s got you.

~Nicole

Here are a JUST A FEW resources for review on the topic of Demons, Dreams, Spiritual Warfare, and various other “Power Gifts”:

•Neil T. Anderson (author)
•Derek Prince/DPMMinistries

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November 20, 2017

Explore

Posted in Inspirational, true story tagged , , , , , at 7:39 am by Broken & Brave

The Lord is Beautiful. He is Magnificent. How can one so Majestic, so Powerful- Extreme and Supreme- be so kind and gentle and tender with me? But this is exactly how He’s been.

I’ve been pondering His Goodness as He guides and directs my life. When you Purpose your choices to live by faith, yielding to the lead of the ever Amazing Grace of Heaven, you make decisions based on His lead not your own. I sometimes find myself making choices and choosing paths I wouldn’t have considered on my own for various reasons. Sometimes when I embark on His lead and take those steps of faith I am tentative and wondering, but I have enough experience with this- my faith is secure enough to go anyway and obey. Then I usually find myself saying, “I’m so glad I listened and obeyed.”

God sees what we cannot. He has a rooftop view of all of Eternity. The Universe is His footstool. He can see both the future and the past and knows exactly where you are at-both physically as well as emotionally, intellectually and spiritually. He will meet you there every single time. Without fail.

When He guides you to a destination He will make a promise. He will give you something to hang your hope on. Frequently there is some pain and refinement between point A (where you are now) and Point B (the Promised Land). But I dare say, the fire of affliction and the sting of Adversity are worth it. For the glorious fruit that is birthed in your own personal intimacy with the Father is loveliness like non other. Nothing compares to friendship with God.

I’ve recently competed in two figure competitions. I went into the competition season training and preparing, but my heart wasn’t in it. I was tired and weary in general because of the demands my day to day life had to offer. I knew the extra umph I was going to have to muster up if I were to register and compete in a show. There He was, that sweet whisper in my ear, telling me over and over again that I wasn’t done and in fact I had only just begun. So as I searched for something to commit to nothing was working out. This is when I was lead to explore new paths. A new road became known and I ventured into an organization I knew nothing about. I have two friends who compete in this organization so I contacted one and asked some questions. I dove in headlong and committed to one of their biggest shows.

I enjoyed that experience very much…in fact, I enjoyed more than any other show I had ever done before. There was to be another even bigger show the following week in Las Vegas. I wasn’t registered, but the Spirit had already given me the heads up I would qualify to compete and he wanted me to go. It was a tough commitment because I only had a few days notice to get registered, book a hotel, make arrangement for my children…a lot of last minute work. When it’s God is always runs smooth and this is how it went for sure.

Before I committed I sat in church on a Sunday, the day after the first show. As I sat thinking about if I’d go or seeking God to lean in my heart once more so I could be sure of the steps and the expense it would bring I was also listening to my pastor preach. Suddenly, I heard the Spirit of God move in my heart and said, “It would be a mistake for you not to go.” I got out my journal to write His words down and as I was writing it was as though the voice of my pastor were carried in a wind tunnel right to my head. It was supernatural and powerful and I knew God was giving me ample confirmation to sustain my faith. The pastor was saying-just as I was writing the words down…”it would be a mistake not to go.” –pastor said, “I’d rather try and fail than be successful at doing nothing.” Even though he was half way across a large room, his voice spoke like he were right next to me. That was God.

We all play a key in the Body. I had a fabulous experience on that trip and I agree, I would have missed out horribly on so many things for now and the future if I had held back and not gone to Vegas. But even more, my Pastor was faithful to follow the lead of the Spirit in ministry and God used his voice as a source of supplemental confirmation for me. You never know how God is using your life.

On my trip I met some amazing new friends and reconnected with some old ones. But one little gal in particular I am praying for and getting to know. I know our meeting was a Divine Appointment and I can’t wait to see what God does.

I guess my take-a-way for you today is don’t be afraid to try. Don’t hold back when you feel the Lord nudging you in the back. Release inhibitions and bring your will, your reason, into submission. God sees what you can’t. When we take steps of faith He is as close as our face and gives us ample opportunity to trust His lead. The better you become at doing this, the more He will lead you into situations and opportunities that make no sense in the natural and may seem ominous and scary. But trust me, these are the moments when His Greatness won’t vary. He will explore it and expose that same Greatness He has locked in you–even you will be blown away at all the amazing He does in you and through you. He’s always got you…and that’s a Promise.

Walking by Faith is opportunity for Grace.

~Nicole

March 30, 2017

God Still Speaks

Posted in Devotional, Uncategorized tagged , , , , , , at 6:29 am by Broken & Brave

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God Still Speaks

All of Creation sings a love song to God. It can be seen in the green of a leave, the gentle bend of the willow tree and every bird in the air that has its own song to sing.

God’s Voice still speaks. The problem for most in hearing His Voice is difficult–there too much background noise in the way. Spiritual background noise may include negative thinking, discouraging thoughts, depressed thoughts, hopelessness, shame, guilt or anger/bitterness. This type of thinking clouds the heart and soul and makes it difficult for you to know what God really has to say about the troubles of your every day.

Have you ever had a conversation with someone in a busy street? It’s difficult to hear what the other person is saying and sometimes difficult to clearly communicate your words as well. You pull in closer, you look intently at the face of the one speaking, you may even bend your ear in to the conversation. This is what we must do with God. So many want to hear His Voice. You can! Lean into Him in prayer, conversation. Talk to him like you would a friend. Do not feel silly. He hears it all and if you faithfully pursue him you will find him. It’s a promise in Matthew 5 given to you.

God is faithful. He will help you clear out the clutter and noises of life and pull himself right up right to your side. He will look intently into your eyes and He will search your heart and soul. He loves you dearly and wants you to know…He cares. ~Nicole

“Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.”
Jeremiah 33:3